Today was easily one of the more difficult days I've had to experience. Vince texted me this morning with some seriously concerning stuff and it stressed me out of my mind all day. I know he didn't mean to stress me out or make me feel like what he was going through was my fault but he did. I'm still glad he contacted me and told me what was going on though. I wish so desperately that I could actually be there for him but I honestly don't think that would be very healthy for either of us. I had to keep reminding myself that him not doing well is not my fault. Our break up may have played a role in him experiencing this right now but ultimately even if I stayed with him he would still be struggling with this. It's something that requires legitimate professional help and no matter what I could do to help, I can't do that.
I had my first calculus exam due today as well and I was so worried about it. I ended up asking my professor if I could get an extension on the deadline and he pushed it back to be due on Monday just before midnight so I have some more time now which is good. That on top of everything with Vince was really making me spiral. I was able to take a nap after lots and lots of crying. I woke up dehydrated and starving and with a killer headache. I grabbed some Taco Time, popped a pain reliever, and then spent the rest of the day with David watching the NBA Western Finals and then some Blindspot and just hanging out. The break was most definitely needed and I'm grateful he's nearby. Especially with Derity living in IF now. It was a rough day and I'm grateful it's over. I talked with Vince's Bishop about looking out for him and I feel better about the whole situation even though I know that I can't do much. There's somebody there who can and that's comforting.
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