The break up is still hard. I figure it's something to document since it's my first breakup and honestly I'm utterly heartbroken by it all. It is easily the most difficult decision I've ever had to make and while I still feel confident it was the right one, that doesn't take the pain away. The only thing holding me together through this is faith that I'm following God and faith that He is watching over Vince right now because I can't. Gosh. I really really hope that Vince is okay.
I started thinking about it all too much again today and started to cry as I was driving. If it's hurting me this much I can only imagine how much it's hurting him and I'm finding it difficult to forgive myself for causing him that much pain. I do feel however that I'll be able to forgive myself of this eventually because it will end up far better for the both of us. And I couldn't forgive myself for robbing both of us of that future I'm placing my faith in.
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