3/6/18

My call still isn’t here yet and I am stressing out. It’s been five weeks since I first thought it was submitted, four since it was actually submitted (once I took a page back to my physician that had to be filled out but had been skipped over.) It’s not supposed to take so long, and I’m trying not to cry every time I try to log in to the missionary emailing system just to have it tell me I’m not a missionary so I don’t have an account. My parents keep telling me that I “just need to have more faith in God’s timing.” And I get that, but until I get that call I can’t know when I’m leaving and thus can’t plan things for after my mission or apply for an actual missionary deferment for winter semester. I’m not good with having my future be so up in the air and not being able to do anything about it.