12/19/17

I'm not going to lie, this semester has been a downward spiral. I am getting D's and C's in over half my classes and I haven't gotten above a C+ on any of the tests I've taken. It's okay though, because sometimes things go wrong and not at all how you had planned and you just have to take it in stride.

I feel as if I am teetering along the lines of blaming my mental illness versus blaming myself versus blaming the side effects of my medications. It's hard to see where my depression ends and where I begin. I think, aside from financial reasons, that is one of the main reasons that I am taking off this semester before my mission. I need some time off to focus on fixing myself and that is okay.

Basically a lot of things have gone off track from how I had planned my life to go. I think that happens to everyone and I just want to remind everyone that it is 100% okay to change your plans, even if it feels like it may be halting your progress to getting where you want to go. Take care of yourself first and foremost, and then you will be in a position where you can take care of everything else.

Good news though: your girl finished all her finals! She didn't do so hot on all of them but she did her best with what she had and that is good enough for now.