12/30/17

My fam-bam brought me french fries today which was very nice,

12/29/17

A haiku:

Boys are very dumb
Boys are incredibly dumb
Boys are super dumb

12/27/17

I helped Spencer give his new puppy a bath. Plus I saw Jumanji: Welcome to the Jungle with his family cause they had an extra ticket. The movie was amazing by the way, in case you were wondering. High end comedy right there.

12/26/17

Today I had to pee in a cup, get my finger pricked for a blood cell count, and get a shot testing for TB alongside other doctor things. It was sort of a train wreck because we forgot to bring the papers they needed for my mission physical and apparently I hadn't filled out everything I had needed too. It worked out though and here's to hoping that I don't have tuberculosis. (Results will be in on the 28th)

I also saw The Last Jedi today and it was pretty hecka good. I kind of regret not hopping onto the Star Wars bandwagon back when I was younger and my dad tried his hardest to convince me they were the best movies ever. 

12/24/17

We hosted a dinner for my moms side tonight and that proved to be very stressful because we had to prepare the whole house and set up extra tables plus make rolls and a ham and a dessert and set up appetizers. There was more yelling then I think there should be on Christmas Eve. But at least I got new pajamas.

We have a new mini tree this year and my mother hung up these little frame ornaments that she intended to fill with pictures of us. That ended up not happening and so Adam, being funny as he is, printed out a bunch of different pictures of Nicolas Cage and put them into the frames. I have to say, I think I like it better that way.

12/23/17

Every year on December 23rd the Britsch side of my family meets up at Ama and Grandpas house and we have a dinner and then sing songs and it's honestly one of my favorite Christmas traditions. This year Nat's two kids Liam and Lucas came and I haven't been able to get them to talk to me because they're both real shy but tonigt Liz and I got them to play with us and open up. They are seriously the cutest kids ever and I am so thankful that I got to spend time with them before my mission.

Basically I'm thankful for lots of things today. Family mostly. I got to arrive early and help Ama set up. I got to bond with my cousins and their kids and I got to paint my sisters nails. Christmas really helps put things in perspective if you ask me.

12/22/17

I officially moved back home today. It's kind of strange to think about not going back to my apartment once the break is over and not starting a second semester at BYU like I'd planned. It's crazy to think that four months from now I will be nineteen and maybe even being dropped off at the M.T.C. And then I'll live in this entirely different place for a year and a half.

Adam, Abbey, Rachel, Megan and I all played Heads Up today. It was actually really nice and it made me kind of excited to be able to spend more time with them before I leave. Even though my room is outrageously small now (and shared with an elliptical and two fake trees), I'm happy to be with my family. It is bittersweet though, cause now I'll miss my college family.

12/21/17

Today I officially packed up my dorm room. It's really bittersweet because I know that moving out is the right thing for me. But boy oh boy am I going to miss my girls. Kailey with her mama bear attitude and Melissa always studying in the closet and Megan with her sassy comments and Izzy being my soul sister and Eliza whose half of the room was just as messy as my half and who has probably watched every Hallmark movie ever made. They have become some of my very best friends and I am so lucky to have met them all.

12/19/17

I'm not going to lie, this semester has been a downward spiral. I am getting D's and C's in over half my classes and I haven't gotten above a C+ on any of the tests I've taken. It's okay though, because sometimes things go wrong and not at all how you had planned and you just have to take it in stride.

I feel as if I am teetering along the lines of blaming my mental illness versus blaming myself versus blaming the side effects of my medications. It's hard to see where my depression ends and where I begin. I think, aside from financial reasons, that is one of the main reasons that I am taking off this semester before my mission. I need some time off to focus on fixing myself and that is okay.

Basically a lot of things have gone off track from how I had planned my life to go. I think that happens to everyone and I just want to remind everyone that it is 100% okay to change your plans, even if it feels like it may be halting your progress to getting where you want to go. Take care of yourself first and foremost, and then you will be in a position where you can take care of everything else.

Good news though: your girl finished all her finals! She didn't do so hot on all of them but she did her best with what she had and that is good enough for now.

12/18/17

I had to take a final today in a class whose midterm test I bombed. I got a 60% on it so that sucked. And then I ordered chicken nuggets but the girl put in a chicken sandwich and by the time I sat down to eat I had walked to an entirely different building. So I'm already not feeling great and then this stupid sandwich has pickles on it and I can't stand pickles and so I start crying on this random bench in the Kennedy Center. I guess I'm saying this because I think it's important to share the crappy things too. It's important to recognize that everybody goes through crap one way or another and it's okay to cry over pickles in a sandwich that was supposed to be chicken nuggets.

12/16/17

On the verge of flipping off every person who even makes eye contact with me. But I don't flip people off because I try to be a good person and I just need to go to the temple.

Finals are the absolute worst. And I haven't even taken one yet.

12/14/17

Last day of classes! It would be more exciting if it didn't mean that the impending doom of finals is now upon us.

Cats fitting themselves into tiny spaces are one of my reasons for living.

12/13/17

Today I was eating lunch in the Wilk and a group of girls complimented my hair and embroidered pants and shoes and told me they loved my style. It was actually one of the sweetest things ever and made me so happy and tbh I can't stop thinking about it.

I also went over to my friend Jacob's apartment today so that we could work on a group Bio project and he and his roommate Andrew found out that my alarm in the mornings is labeled "wake up you sexy thang." So the cat's out of the bag on that now.

12/12/17

I made a video for my Writing 150 final project about the initiation into the church that we created and it makes me so happy I might cry.

12/11/17

Today was a marvelous day. Finals has been a major stressor and I got a little ray of sunshine in the form of three accidentally added chicken nuggets. It was glorious.

12/6/17

I made some macaroons and they actually turned out way hecka good on my first try and tbh I could not be prouder of myself.

Panic over finals is beginning to settle in. I can feel it.

12/5/17

Things You Run Out of Super Hecka Fast at College:

• toilet paper
• paper towels
• garbage bags
• patience
• motivation
• leisure time
• socializing time
• time in general
• ability to think of anything except classes
• money
• food that isn't made using water and a microwave
• sanity

12/4/17

We went to Temple Square for FHE today and boy oh boy was it a party. We got to take Front Runner  and a series of buses and it was so beautiful. I got to get to know some people way better whilst playing Uno and Go Fish and I am so glad that I went.

I also got to #LightTheWorld by using one of the vending machines they set up to help the needy. $5 and someone gets glasses. $75 and someone gets a goat, but sadly I cannot afford a goat.

Here is a clip of my sassy self in the floofy hat Taylor let me borrow.

12/3/17

Tbh, I would not be mad at all if Tom Holland was my first kiss. Like wow oh boy is he attractive.

We put lights on our tree today and it is mighty beautiful.

12/2/17

Last night I had a dream that it was the zombie apocalypse and I couldn't go to fight the zombies because I had to stay and run my chicken farm. All my friends went off to fight and they entrusted their dogs to me so I could keep them safe. It was actually very stressful.

Also my mom came to visit me today because I am getting so stressed out with finals coming up and worrying about financial things. She made one of my favorite dinners in little tinfoil pans so that I could have leftovers and she is just amazing. I'm really lucky to have her as my best friend.

It's uncanny how alike my mom and I actually are. Today we were talking about my little sister Megan giving the silent treatment when she's mad and at the same time we said, "She got that from Rachel." and then answered each other at the same time by saying, "Yeah." It was sort of amazing.

11/29/17

It's only been three days back from break and I am already in over my head and ready to give up.

Also I just realized that it's been nearly four months since I've eaten an eggo waffle and that seems so tragic to me.

11/28/17

Recurring Nightmares:

• going back to work at Culvers
• running into people from my past who cut me off and not knowing what to say to them
• running into people from my past who cut me off and knowing exactly what to say to them
• ending up shirtless in a public place
• not being able to handle college life

11/27/17

A Fiasco of Great Proportions

Life Tip: When making a mac n cheese cup, do not forget to put in the water.

Update: It was so bad they had to air out the whole building and you could smell it before even walking inside. We live on the third floor.

11/26/27

Me: I'm going to be more responsible.
Also me: *makes every irresponsible choice possible*

11/25/17

Not gonna lie, I would definitely die in an apocalypse. I have zero survival skills. When we learned about North, East, South, and West in elementary school, North was in front of me. So I was very confused up until like eighth grade because I was under the impression that North was whatever direction you were facing.

11/24/17

Thanksgiving Break has been much needed. Although I still have a twelve page paper lingering in the back of my head.

I got to hang out with my friends Spence and Em the other day. I have got to say that I have truly missed actually interacting with guys. And Spence is great and we went off-roading and he shoved ice cream in my face and didn't hardcore judge me for eating all the fries. And then we all watched "I Accidentally Married an Axe Murderer" and I still don't know how it ended because I fell asleep. I ended up sleeping at Emily's house that night because when I finally got home it was nearly 1 AM and my parents had locked all the doors and our garage door opener needs new batteries, so I had no way to get in. It was just a crazy but great night and I have just really missed my friends.

Included in friends I've missed and gotten to see are my five best friends: Rachael, Mary, Kennadee, Megan, and Emily. We got to get together Tuesday night and eat ice cream at Kenn's house and wow oh wow have I missed my girls. (pictured below)

11/20/17

Today I learned that our dishwasher sounds like it's providing the soundtrack to "We Will Rock You."

Currently Megan, Eliza, and I are coming up with an intricate plot line to the life of a boy we saw pacing by the pavilion outside our window. Kailey was helping but she ended up passing out on the couch about forty minutes ago.

I just really love these people. Kailey, Melissa, Izzy, Megan, and Eliza. They're my college family and I never would have thought that in little as three months I would consider them my best friends. I don't think I could survive college without them and I am going to miss them so much when I am on my mission.

Speaking of, I started my mission papers!

11/19/17

Pardon my being M.I.A. this last week, but I have had a crazy amount of homework and projects and tests as we approach Thanksgiving Break.

College is stressful, I'm not gonna lie. I am ready to rip all my hair out and scream into my pillow. Maybe break some glassware like Adele in her "Rolling In The Deep" music video.

Some deep stuff: Last night I was driving home from Provo to see Rachel's play and while I was on the freeway the car right next to me swerved to avoid hitting the car in front of it that had slowed down. I ended up over correcting when I tried to get out of the way and I lost all control of my car. I was zigzagging for what felt like forever and I ended up doing a full 180 until my car came to a stop. I was shaking so bad and was so scared I could barely think to turn my car back around. By some miracle I didn't hit anyone or anything and all the cars behind me had stopped so none of them hit me when my car flipped around. I honestly thought that I was going to die though and it was absolutely terrifying and I can't say that my life flashed before my eyes or anything because all I could think was that I didn't want to die. I cried the rest of the way home. I had to keep repeating to myself that I was okay and everything was okay. I realized that the Lord was watching out for me though. Less than a month ago I had to buy all those new tires right? Four new tires because out of the blue three of them were flat and irreparable. So I paid a bunch of money for new tires with good tread and I joked that God better be saving me from some terrible disaster by making me get these tires. Little did I know, right? I am just so grateful to be alive right now and to have a God that watches out for me and protects me.

11/14/17

During work today the Bruno Mars song "Just The Way You Are" came on. Every time that song comes on I think of sixth grade when Miss. B was trying to pick out songs for sixth grade graduation and she asked us if this song was too risque because he called her laugh sexy. That song was all the rage and we considered ourselves very mature and convinced her to add it to the playlist.

Funny how random things will just stick with you and you have no say in what those things will be.

My mom came to our apartment today and our dishes weren't done and I was a bit embarrassed and I realized that I was already slowly becoming my mother. Which actually isn't too bad, she's fantastic.

I got to talk to Abbey on the phone today and it made me realize how much I miss her and everyone else. And it's only been like a week and a half since I saw them last.

11/12/17

We are building our reputation as the apartment that always watches movies on Sunday nights and it's fantastic. Although we often end up awake until 12:00 am which probably isn't good for us but we sure do get a lot of good quotes out of it.

11/11/17

I remember when it was 11/11/11 at 11:11; I was in gym class and we were bowling at Fat Cats across the street from the high school and we all gathered around and counted down the seconds and then made a wish. I don't even remember what I wished for, probably something dumb like a boy. Sounds like something I would have done.

Sometimes I forget that I'm actually in college and I'll wake up and walk down the hallway and get this really weird realization that this is my house now and this is my life now and nothing will ever be the way it was before and while that's hard, it's also okay.

I thought about doing the dishes again today, but then Kailey and Melissa beat me to it because they were responsible and woke up before 10:00 am. 

11/10/17

Yesterday I did all the dishes by myself and I am still ridiculously proud of that fact.

This has actually been a really tough week, and I am so glad it's over.

I've been feeling so much anxiety, like I could just cave into myself. I'm not doing as well in classes as I should be doing if I want to keep my scholarships and the worry has really been just eating away at me. But tonight I went to the temple and it really just helped me refocus everything and I feel ten times better. When in doubt always go to the temple or somewhere quiet and spiritual. Always.

11/9/17

Daylight Savings has got me messed up somehow, I booked it to my 1:00 class at 12:00 and ended up stumbling into Italian instead of French. My homework was already done so I thought I would chill on the couch until class but then I fell asleep and woke up at 1:25 and this encapsulates my life.

Also I remembered that a while back Megan was making banana bread and was going down the list of ingredients and then grabbing them but when she said "honey" I legitimately thought she was talking to me so I was like, "yeah?" and that also encapsulates my life.

11/6/17

We sang a Christmas song in French today. It was awesome.

I can feel Christmas already and I am so excited so I drank some hot cocoa to celebrate.

11/5/17

I was woken up by a dog licking my inner nostril at 3:30 am.

Luckily the rest of the day went better. We went to Eliza's grandma's house for dinner PLUS it is Eliza's birthday and I had a dance off with her little sister Grace and ate a cupcake and then we invited a bunch of people over to watch Lilo and Stitch after we took all the creepy smiley face balloons and stashed them in the activity room.

Twas a very adventurous day for a Sunday.

11/4/17

It is the nicest thing to sleep whilst surrounded by doggos.

I am also low key obsessed with Dua Lipa's "New Rules" song and music video. Not gonna lie.

11/3/17

Today I truly experienced adulthood.

I went to a doctors appointment by myself and had to deal with a flat tire which really sucked but now all my information is in the system at the Honda dealership which is very nice.

I am also watching my relatives three dogs over the weekend and I love it because they don't judge me when I fart.

11/1/17

I took a nap in between classes today and it was glorious. However, I also ate some cookie dough and may very well die of salmonella now so that is not as glorious.

I'll keep you updated if I end up hospitalized.

10/31/17

Super in the mood to watch all the Halloween Town movies. Whilst eating the cookie dough I bought today.

I also signed up for my next semesters classes and I am sort of panicking about all my life decisions but it's whatever. That's normal right?

10/30/17

I've been binge watching Stranger Things for the past couple days so that's why I've been M.I.A. just in case you were wondering. I definitely cried a little 20 minutes and 44 seconds into Episode 8. 

I think that animals who have developed adaptations to defend themselves whilst being eaten are the weirdest things. Like, "Today I only almost got eaten twice so it's been a good day."

10/26/17

I ran into a girl with the same backpack as me and she got excited and said, "We're backpack twins!" And that was the extent of our interaction. It was great. I'm pretty sure we're best friends now.

I semi shamefully admit that I created a mutual account that I originally didn't intend to actually use but then I swiped up on a guy named Raul and turns out he had swiped up on me too so I don't really know where to go from here. But his bio suggested In-N-Out would be a viable first date option so swiping up seemed like the right thing to do.

10/25/17

Twice today people offered to plug in my computer for me because they were closer to the outlet and that was the nicest thing ever.

More of the nicest things ever? Wearing a comfy pajama shirt but disguising it as a normal shirt. And letting your hair out after it's been pulled up tight all day. 

10/24/17

I totally spaced that it was a Tuesday which means I had work. So an hour into my shift I'm still at home lying on my bed and it dawns on me that I had work and I just book it and I get there and Sam is like, "Hey Anna. Don't worry, I won't tell anyone that you're late. So you're good." It was the nicest thing ever.

Also, if you are for some reason my current employer and are reading this, please forget you ever saw it. I would never forget about a shift. Stocking overpriced produce is my passion.

10/23/17

My roommates and I are like 79% sure that our apartment is haunted because things (mostly light fixtures) are constantly rattling. It can actually get kind of loud and the loudest one is in my room and  that makes it significantly harder to take my procrastination naps.

Also: we went to DI today (it was Kailey and Melissa's first time considering there aren't any DI's in Washington) and looked for Halloween costumes and I found the perfect old lady outfit complete with shoulder pads and I can't wait. If you're craving a butterscotch on Halloween, I'll be your gal.

10/22/17

KJ Apa's eyebrows give me life.

Also it's my half birthday today so naturally I made a cake and wore a cow onesie.

So now I'm eighteen and a half and I've never been kissed but that's okay because that just means my life still has the potential to be like Drew Barrymore's character in Never Been Kissed.

10/21/17

Pro Tips from Anna:

• Don't sneeze with a tight choker on, it is absolutely terrifying.
• Dads have the superpower to make you feel ten times better 
• Temple trips are best with people you love who will rub your back while you're waiting to get into the font. (I'm talkin' bout you Rach.)
• Midterms for Bio 100 are hundreds of times more fun if you label the finished product as, "The Finally Finished Web Story That Looks Hecka Awesome."

Speaking of that, check it out right here! I'm pretty proud of it. Not to brag or anything but it really is hecka awesome. 

10/20/17

Chick Fil A sandwiches always taste better when you're eating them with the one and only Maddie Taylor.

Rachael Brueck is the best ever person to take with you on canyon drives, and her phone takes way better pictures than mine does.

10/19/17

I am loving fall on campus, there are leaves pretty much everywhere. I cannot begin to explain to you how tempted I am to roll around in all of them.

Eliza is reading this hecka weird book called Lily of the Manor and she explained the whole plot to me and now we have been explaining the plot to our roommates one at a time and it just gets funnier and funnier.

10/18/17

Had crêpes with my French class today and also discovered that I am doomed to failure if I continue on procrastinating everything the way I have been. So it's been a pretty productive day.

10/17/17

Today was a great day because:

• I got embroidered pants
• Melissa made chicken noodle soup
• We decorated the windows on our floor Star Wars themed using sticky notes
• Halloween lights
• Quote walls

10/16/17

Izzy and I made the greatest pumpkin with the word "debt" in all caps on it because that seemed like the scariest possible thing to think about.

10/15/17

It's actually two am the next day because I have a terrible sleep schedule.

Legitimate question though: where do you find the colored walls that make great backgrounds for pictures?

Also last night Rach and I went to a Nacho Libre movie party at some RM's off campus housing and there's a sign above their door that says "Get Married" and if that's not the essence of BYU culture then I don't know what is.

Fun fact: one of the guys roommates turned out to be unicycle guy from about a week and a half ago!

*Update: Rachael is now dating this boy. His name is Matt. I think they very well might get married*

*Another update: They did get married. In December of 2018.*

10/13/17

Okay, real talk: there are some pretty messed up things going on in the world and I've been thinking about it a lot today. It scares me to know that there are people without any freedoms and children who grew up without families. There is so much confusion and hate and fear and I like to think that changing all that starts on an individual level. Individuals making differences in the lives of other individuals.

10/12/17

Is it far enough into the semester for it to be acceptable to give up?

10/10/17

Isn't it great when you're sick and you tell people and they respond with "Yeah you look sick." Like thank you, because that's definitely what I needed to hear when I'm feeling like someone stepped on my face.

Funny story: I am stocking produce, just chilling with my potatoes and this cute boy customer asks me how I'm doing. I told him I was doing pretty good and asked how he was and he was like, "I'm good." Then there was this awkward silence so I asked him if he had any questions and he got kinda red and said "I was going to ask you where the produce bags are but they're right here." So I laughed and told him I was glad I could help. Then he said "Yeah thanks so much, I love you." He promptly walked away but then like two minutes later he asked me what my favorite color was and then he left and it was really weird but actually the cutest thing that's ever happened to me.

10/9/17

I found another potato today! This time is was at the base of the "Start Here" sign they have up behind the HBLL. It was glorious.

I'm pretty sure I sneezed at least seventeen times today.

10/8/17

I taught my first official Sunday School lesson today! I had a lot of help from my uber prepared teaching companion Jonah, and it went so great! 

Everybody thought it was really funny that I tell myself I did all that excercise walking back from campus so I deserve to use the elevator. 

10/7/17

Last night I drove a girl that I work with home so that she didn't have to walk in the dark and now we're friends. If that's not pure then I don't know what is.

I have to wear this weird nose thing for a sleep apnea test & I feel sorta like Hazel from Fault In Our Stars but mostly it's just tickling me every time I breathe.

10/6/17

At this point my eating habits are basically down the toilet. It's like an endless cycle of potatoes, mac n cheese, and Chick Fil A.

10/5/17

I promise you I really was gonna go to bed on time but then I started a puzzle and it took me longer than I thought it would. I was in too deep and I had to finish.

Also I desperately want to see Anastasia on Broadway. Somebody please take me and I will love you forever.

10/4/17

Why are boys with brown hair so dang cute?

My French teacher is pretty dang awesome.

A guy on a unicycle passed me on campus today.

I cannot even begin to stress how deep my love for Riverdale is.

10/3/17

Today during work a very cute boy playing the ukulele was pacing back and forth the produce aisle. I was worried that maybe I was in front of something he wanted so I made eye contact with him and smiled and he smiled back and said, "Do you guys have any pears?" Funnily enough he was standing right in front of them and when I pointed them out he got all flustered.

I have so much to do to prep for my French test I might die.

On the bright side, I got mini decorative pumpkins!

9/30/17

I wore a cool white choker today.

I also got to come home for general conference and I am spending the night at my house and I had access to too much candy and now I have a sugar headache. Oh well, c'est la vie.

9/29/17

I have been looking for potatoes and have yet to find one. I assume that either the culprit has given up their ways or the grounds crew gets to the potatoes before I can.

My mom got me my own personal smoothie maker the other day and so I bought all the ingredients for smoothies yesterday and I made one for breakfast this morning and it was wonderful.

9/28/17

Yesterday the server at the restaurant asked if my mom and I would be paying with separate checks and tbh I'm still thinking about it.

We all gathered around in Melissa and Kailey's room after cleaning checks and talked about boys and laughed hysterically and it was one of those good moments you want to remember for a long time.

9/27/17

"When you see something good in someone, speak it." Little compliments from strangers boost my self esteem an insane amount. (A very nice girl told me she loved my happy yellow backpack!)

Cassidy Forsyth got married today! She was made to dance in that dress. And naturally their playlist was the most admirable wedding playlist I've ever heard.

Another potato has been found, this time on a rock in the river that runs along the side walk. I will investigate this matter further and get back to you.

9/26/17

I found a potato stuck on one of the bumps on the handrail of the stairs on my way to school.

Also I found bubble wrap and told my friend Sam who works with me (and is a manager) and he got really excited and popped them all. I aspire to be that excited about bubble wrap when I am twenty two.

9/25/2017

When you drive social people to a party you are then obligated to stay there until they are ready to leave. Protect your inner introvert and don't give yourself any responsibilities.

9/23/17

10/10 would recommend watching ridiculous movies and then reading their Netflix reviews.

9/22/17

Note to self: when choosing rooms for dorm living, do not choose the room that shares a wall with the living room of the dorm next to you. There will never be a weekend you can go to sleep without the ambiance of karaoke and flirting.

9/21/2017

I wanna be famous but the only part of fame I want is being able to inspire young girls and wear princess dresses to fancy events.

And also maybe kissing scenes with hot movie stars.

9/20/17

I was this close to falling asleep during an exam.

We got our visiting teaching assignments and I made cookie dough balls and put them in baggies and wrote "Being your visiting teacher is gonna be 'dough'pe!" I am so proud of me.

9/19/17

Boy at Creamery: I like your glasses.
Me: Thanks! I enjoy yours as well.

I legitimately said this to someone.

9/18/17

Today is most definitely one of those days where a sweater is completely reasonable in the morning but a horrid decision in the afternoon.

Why is young Robert Downy Jr. literally one of the most attractive things to ever exist?

9/17/17

I really just want people to speak their mind, which is so hypocritical because I am terrible at that.

We all went to my house for dinner today and apparently my mom and I are twins so that's cool. 

9/15/17

This morning it was between having just rained and about to rain and that is my favorite weather right there.

Sweaters with little thumbholes are one of my reasons for living.

9/14/17

 I cannot emphasize enough how much I desperately want to be a combination of 90's Jennifer Aniston and current Vanessa Hudgens.

Kairos, alongside sporadically, is a word I want to start using more frequently. Thank you Writing 150 and Clueless.