11/29/17

It's only been three days back from break and I am already in over my head and ready to give up.

Also I just realized that it's been nearly four months since I've eaten an eggo waffle and that seems so tragic to me.

11/28/17

Recurring Nightmares:

• going back to work at Culvers
• running into people from my past who cut me off and not knowing what to say to them
• running into people from my past who cut me off and knowing exactly what to say to them
• ending up shirtless in a public place
• not being able to handle college life

11/27/17

A Fiasco of Great Proportions

Life Tip: When making a mac n cheese cup, do not forget to put in the water.

Update: It was so bad they had to air out the whole building and you could smell it before even walking inside. We live on the third floor.

11/26/27

Me: I'm going to be more responsible.
Also me: *makes every irresponsible choice possible*

11/25/17

Not gonna lie, I would definitely die in an apocalypse. I have zero survival skills. When we learned about North, East, South, and West in elementary school, North was in front of me. So I was very confused up until like eighth grade because I was under the impression that North was whatever direction you were facing.

11/24/17

Thanksgiving Break has been much needed. Although I still have a twelve page paper lingering in the back of my head.

I got to hang out with my friends Spence and Em the other day. I have got to say that I have truly missed actually interacting with guys. And Spence is great and we went off-roading and he shoved ice cream in my face and didn't hardcore judge me for eating all the fries. And then we all watched "I Accidentally Married an Axe Murderer" and I still don't know how it ended because I fell asleep. I ended up sleeping at Emily's house that night because when I finally got home it was nearly 1 AM and my parents had locked all the doors and our garage door opener needs new batteries, so I had no way to get in. It was just a crazy but great night and I have just really missed my friends.

Included in friends I've missed and gotten to see are my five best friends: Rachael, Mary, Kennadee, Megan, and Emily. We got to get together Tuesday night and eat ice cream at Kenn's house and wow oh wow have I missed my girls. (pictured below)

11/20/17

Today I learned that our dishwasher sounds like it's providing the soundtrack to "We Will Rock You."

Currently Megan, Eliza, and I are coming up with an intricate plot line to the life of a boy we saw pacing by the pavilion outside our window. Kailey was helping but she ended up passing out on the couch about forty minutes ago.

I just really love these people. Kailey, Melissa, Izzy, Megan, and Eliza. They're my college family and I never would have thought that in little as three months I would consider them my best friends. I don't think I could survive college without them and I am going to miss them so much when I am on my mission.

Speaking of, I started my mission papers!

11/19/17

Pardon my being M.I.A. this last week, but I have had a crazy amount of homework and projects and tests as we approach Thanksgiving Break.

College is stressful, I'm not gonna lie. I am ready to rip all my hair out and scream into my pillow. Maybe break some glassware like Adele in her "Rolling In The Deep" music video.

Some deep stuff: Last night I was driving home from Provo to see Rachel's play and while I was on the freeway the car right next to me swerved to avoid hitting the car in front of it that had slowed down. I ended up over correcting when I tried to get out of the way and I lost all control of my car. I was zigzagging for what felt like forever and I ended up doing a full 180 until my car came to a stop. I was shaking so bad and was so scared I could barely think to turn my car back around. By some miracle I didn't hit anyone or anything and all the cars behind me had stopped so none of them hit me when my car flipped around. I honestly thought that I was going to die though and it was absolutely terrifying and I can't say that my life flashed before my eyes or anything because all I could think was that I didn't want to die. I cried the rest of the way home. I had to keep repeating to myself that I was okay and everything was okay. I realized that the Lord was watching out for me though. Less than a month ago I had to buy all those new tires right? Four new tires because out of the blue three of them were flat and irreparable. So I paid a bunch of money for new tires with good tread and I joked that God better be saving me from some terrible disaster by making me get these tires. Little did I know, right? I am just so grateful to be alive right now and to have a God that watches out for me and protects me.

11/14/17

During work today the Bruno Mars song "Just The Way You Are" came on. Every time that song comes on I think of sixth grade when Miss. B was trying to pick out songs for sixth grade graduation and she asked us if this song was too risque because he called her laugh sexy. That song was all the rage and we considered ourselves very mature and convinced her to add it to the playlist.

Funny how random things will just stick with you and you have no say in what those things will be.

My mom came to our apartment today and our dishes weren't done and I was a bit embarrassed and I realized that I was already slowly becoming my mother. Which actually isn't too bad, she's fantastic.

I got to talk to Abbey on the phone today and it made me realize how much I miss her and everyone else. And it's only been like a week and a half since I saw them last.

11/12/17

We are building our reputation as the apartment that always watches movies on Sunday nights and it's fantastic. Although we often end up awake until 12:00 am which probably isn't good for us but we sure do get a lot of good quotes out of it.

11/11/17

I remember when it was 11/11/11 at 11:11; I was in gym class and we were bowling at Fat Cats across the street from the high school and we all gathered around and counted down the seconds and then made a wish. I don't even remember what I wished for, probably something dumb like a boy. Sounds like something I would have done.

Sometimes I forget that I'm actually in college and I'll wake up and walk down the hallway and get this really weird realization that this is my house now and this is my life now and nothing will ever be the way it was before and while that's hard, it's also okay.

I thought about doing the dishes again today, but then Kailey and Melissa beat me to it because they were responsible and woke up before 10:00 am. 

11/10/17

Yesterday I did all the dishes by myself and I am still ridiculously proud of that fact.

This has actually been a really tough week, and I am so glad it's over.

I've been feeling so much anxiety, like I could just cave into myself. I'm not doing as well in classes as I should be doing if I want to keep my scholarships and the worry has really been just eating away at me. But tonight I went to the temple and it really just helped me refocus everything and I feel ten times better. When in doubt always go to the temple or somewhere quiet and spiritual. Always.

11/9/17

Daylight Savings has got me messed up somehow, I booked it to my 1:00 class at 12:00 and ended up stumbling into Italian instead of French. My homework was already done so I thought I would chill on the couch until class but then I fell asleep and woke up at 1:25 and this encapsulates my life.

Also I remembered that a while back Megan was making banana bread and was going down the list of ingredients and then grabbing them but when she said "honey" I legitimately thought she was talking to me so I was like, "yeah?" and that also encapsulates my life.

11/6/17

We sang a Christmas song in French today. It was awesome.

I can feel Christmas already and I am so excited so I drank some hot cocoa to celebrate.

11/5/17

I was woken up by a dog licking my inner nostril at 3:30 am.

Luckily the rest of the day went better. We went to Eliza's grandma's house for dinner PLUS it is Eliza's birthday and I had a dance off with her little sister Grace and ate a cupcake and then we invited a bunch of people over to watch Lilo and Stitch after we took all the creepy smiley face balloons and stashed them in the activity room.

Twas a very adventurous day for a Sunday.

11/4/17

It is the nicest thing to sleep whilst surrounded by doggos.

I am also low key obsessed with Dua Lipa's "New Rules" song and music video. Not gonna lie.

11/3/17

Today I truly experienced adulthood.

I went to a doctors appointment by myself and had to deal with a flat tire which really sucked but now all my information is in the system at the Honda dealership which is very nice.

I am also watching my relatives three dogs over the weekend and I love it because they don't judge me when I fart.

11/1/17

I took a nap in between classes today and it was glorious. However, I also ate some cookie dough and may very well die of salmonella now so that is not as glorious.

I'll keep you updated if I end up hospitalized.